Sunday, September 30, 2012

Why aren't things going my way??


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Why aren't things going my way?

We ask ourselves this question a lot but in different forms
For example:
Why does it seem like everything is going great for that person and not me?
Why haven't I found a job yet?
Why haven't I found the right person to be with?
Why does it seem like I can't catch a break with school, bills, relationships or work?
When will this stress end?
Why does it seem like my best isn't enough?
Why can't we get along?
Why am I still waiting?
Why did I have to loose that person?
Why am I going through all of this?

It's totally normal to look at your current situation and question what's going on. It's normal to want to be happy, stress-free, fulfilled and accepted. It's normal to have doubts and strongly want a change.
I've asked myself all those questions. And some I ask on the daily, but I've found the solution. PRAYER.
I don't know about you, but have you ever prayed for something and when it got answered, you said to yourself, "There's no way anyone except God, could have done this"? Like the series of events were just set up so perfect that end result couldn't have just occurred by shear chance.

Story time: 

When I was 9 years old my parents decided that they wanted some space from each other. The fighting was getting way too much. Up until then, the fights always ended like this. Someone would always threatened to leave but no one would actually go through with it. But one summer in L.A was the breaking point and all bluffs were called. Our family was separated. I was initially supposed to stay with my dad in San Francisco but he wanted me to stay with my mom and little sister in L.A with my mom's relatives. It wasn't like a normal separation where the dad leaves completely and doesn't see the child for a couple months. My dad drove from SF to LA every Friday night and left Sunday after church. He did this every weekend for 5 years straight. Me and my sister would try and stay up usually until 2 o'clock in the morning waiting for him. Every time he would leave, my little sister and I would post at the window and just be happy that he visited, but angry and sad that this was the arrangement. We both didn't know how long this was going to be. We didn't know if they'd ever work things out. When he left I would sometimes run to my room, kneel and the floor and cry on my bed. At first I would blame God questioning his existence. I honestly told God that I hated him. And then I would calm down, wipe my face and pray. I would apologize for doubting him and let him know that I was saying all that stuff because I was hurting so much. I would pray and say, "Just keep him safe when he drives here this weekend please and keep our family together." I always thought it was just a matter of time that we would get a phone call, and the person on the other line would tell us that my dad was involved in a car accident and that he was never coming back. I would stress out every Friday night until I heard his keys open the front door. For 5 years I went through this cycle, doubting/being angry at God, blaming myself or someone, hating the situation and then praying my heart out.

Long story short, my parents decided to work things out and we moved back to the East Bay. A few months ago prior to graduating in May, I dropped my dad off in the morning at the BART (Bay Area Rapid Transit) station like I always did. But for some reason when I said goodbye and he left the car and I saw him walking away, I started to realize something. Pretty much everything was going my way. I was about to graduate, just finished my finals, got first place in the Science and Engineering Showcase and everything was good. But nothing compared to seeing my dad walk into that BART station. That I could actually see him everyday. It wasn't more than a block away that I just started to ball. Like tears dropping out of nowhere. Just being so emotional and was kind of laughing because this never happens. I'm a really serious mellow kind of guy most of the time. At that moment I knew everything fell into place because of my prayers and God's intervention. I was just so elated. There's no way God was absent in all this. God heard me and was looking out for me and our family. That whole experience in L.A. shaped me into the man I am today. The trials brought our family closer together, I know about sacrifice, I understand the power prayer, I understand real love, I understand what real support is etc, which I could have never understood fully unless this experience took place. My life could have went in a totally different direction if I didn't pray and have God as my anchor. Who knows who'd I end up being.

My message to you guys is that:
-God will never give you anything you can't handle.
-You are at this specific point in your life for a very specific reason that you probably won't understand until later
-God has a bigger plan for you
-the free will and sin of people cause trials and hardships. God isn't of that nature. He's the one that helps your situation. If something goes wrong it's not because of God. It's because of people and their choices. God gives you a way out. He gives you the tools even if you don't ask. But since he does thank God.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know well the plans I have in mind for you-oracle of the Lord-plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you a future of hope"
Romans5:1-5 "Therefore since you have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access [by faith] to this grace in which we stand, and we boast in hope of the glory of God. Not only that but we even boast in our afflictions knowing that afflictions produce endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into out hearts by the holy Spirit that has been given to us."
Proverbs16:9 "The human heart plans the way, but the Lord directs the steps."
2Corinthians5-7 "For we walk by faith, not by sight."
-Everyone is going through some kind of struggle so also make yourself available to them. If you see someone struggling try and reach out.
Advice:
-Be grateful for what you do have (life, talents, loved ones, tomorrow's opportunities etc) 
-Go to your room, turn everything off and pray
Pray for strength, patience, and other tools to overcome your personal hardship.Thank him!
-Trust Him (He knows what he is doing)
Proverbs3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence do not rely; In all your ways be mindful of him, and he will make straight your paths."
-Admit that you can't do it alone. That you are weak and need help (it's not a bad thing)
Ask for help from someone you trust (God could possibly be using them to help you out)
2Corinthinans12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness." I will rather boast most gladly of my weaknesses in order that the power of Christ may dwell with me.
-Chill, Relax, Be PATIENT!!
Philippians4:6-7 Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Other inspirational quotes:
"Every storm is a school. Each trial is a teacher. Every experience is an education. Every difficulty if for your development."- Rick Warren (Pastor/Author)

"Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results." -Anonymous

And......
Mary Stevenson's  "Footprints in the Sand"


The Katinas - Praying for You

The Katinas - One More Time
(Note: I use to listen to this when I use to trip about school and what I was doing with my life)

 

 -God Bless! P.S. If you need advice or help with something I'll try my best to help you out. If I personally know you hit me with a text or call anytime (That's what friends are for) or if you wanna stay anonymous brianjohn88@gmail.com

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Music....Lies? Identity Crisis??

So I was a strong follower of Hip Hop and R&B. Loved the culture and the style, but mainly the music and dances. You know when you're on a date and you want to set the mood? What do you play? Slow Jams. I loved slow jams. Especially that Usher song Bedtime. I sung them all the time, in the shower, in my head before class etc. Then when you're trying to get hyped up before a party, club, or the gym you blast some slaps. I loved hitting the C-Walk, Dougie, Jerk, Hyphy Movement Dances (Giggin etc), dancing explicitly with girls when I listened to that music. Usually those songs talk about getting all the girls, swaggin out, getting faded, going hard wherever you're at, having fun, acting a fool and getting high. The music is used to boost your confidence before you get in. I specifically have an 8" Bazooka tube subwoofer in my trunk to amplify the bassline of those songs. When the bassline kicks in, it was time to wild out. That's the whole reason why
I used to club. And then..... I watched these videos. Before I never thought I was doing anything wrong by listening to that type of music. Didn't think I was doing anything wrong by imitating these artists lifestyles. Didn't think I was doing anything wrong by going to these clubs, promoting and showing my support for that type of music.

Do you like being lied to? Do you like being controlled? Probably not right. But how about if I told you that the world we live in controls how you think. How to act, dress and treat others. If you don't believe in God there's no problem for you when you listen to secular music (secular: of or pertaining to worldly things or to things that are not regarded as religious, spiritual, or sacred; temporal: secular interests). But if you do claim to believe in God, you like my former self, were victims of this Identity Crisis and Conspiracy. Once I watched these videos, I was happy that I learned the truth, put was pissed off that it took so long. It felt like I was living a lie. Another Double Life sort of thing. Like I say I love God but follow the people whose message is completely against his. 

The music I listened to had messages like, YOLO (you only live once). So you act a fool and party hard like there is no tomorrow (get drunk, get high, don't take responsibility, hook up etc.) It's a lie my friends. If you live for this world now, that's the only place you'll ever experience "happiness." I on the other hand believe that God prepared a place (heaven) which is more beautiful and magnificent than I could even describe or imagine. A place where all my deceased loved ones are waiting. If you believe in God you also believe this right? 

What's my point? These artists talk about things that will prevent you from inheriting God's kingdom. These artists are making you enemies of Jesus' message. Jesus said love your neighbor as yourself. These artists say have sex with girls before marriage (lust), get money, cars, clothes (greed, pride), kill anyone who comes in your way, gang banging (wrath, envy), get faded and high (gluttony). I don't know about you but those are people who are promoting sin. Sin is bad. Jesus died for sins. Consciously embracing sin will hold you back from eternal happiness. 

But you say "but some of there songs are about empowering individuals and giving them motivation." But check this, how about it's a conspiracy that we're all apart of? They lure listeners with "good" songs about love, about having self-respect, about helping the environment, treating each other with respect. And then they, on the same CD talk about lustful and prideful things. Prime example Beyonce. You think she's a role model right? Her song "Listen" is empowering women to be heard and be respected. Her other song "Check On it" she says to the guy "I'm sure that I can please you" while dancing around lustfully. Is that a girl who respects herself and her body. Little girls will watch "Listen" and admire her, and then will watch "Check up on it" and try to imitate her. Think about it. She's not the only puppet. Watch These videos please please please! Don't be a hypocrite. You can't support God if you're supporting something that is against what he stands for (died for even). 

There are alternative artists. Right now I'm listening to a lot of Christian Hip Hop (Andy Mineo, Trip Lee, Lecrae). I also listen to The Katinas. I'm not saying all mainstream music is bad, just don't be blind in choosing who to listen too.Why not listen to something that will inspire you, that will give you peace instead of music that doesn't do anything for you except makes your head bob, or makes your heart all fuzzy. I'm telling you there are some inspirational/worship songs that slap! :)               
    
                                     Tedashii- Dum Dum (THIS SLAPS!!!!!)


The Truth shall set you FREE ;)
Music- Jose Palos


                              2007 BET Awards interview prt1 (Beyonce WOW?!)

                                                       The Truth!!!! 

                                          Kanye West vs. Jesus' mission?


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Sex: Hold off and Be A Real Man


                                               Theology of His Body 
 

Romance without Regret



A couple months ago I made a decision that whatever relationship I enter into next I’m going to make sure that I remain abstinent, and the only way I’m going to cease that lifestyle is on my wedding day. I'll go into why in a bit but first let's talk about love.  

 Love.
True love is supposed to be about self-giving and not self-seeking. That's the bottom line. If you read the bible verses that are recited at almost every wedding, in 1Corinthians13, it's the inspired definition of love from God. The God that created man and woman in the first place.  

Genesis2:18 The Lord God said: It is not good for man to be alone. I will make a helper suited to him. 

Use that chapter as your guideline to see if you are really in love. A lot of the verses basically say love isn't selfish. Are you selfish? Are you in "love" because it's better than being lonely. Are you using someone just because of the attention? Because of what material things they can provide? Because he or she makes you feel good about yourself physically? Do you boast about your "love" onto others? Are you just settling because you don't want to be alone? And how you can love someone if you don't love yourself? The only way you can show it is if you've already experienced it and know what it is. The only way you can experience it are through the people who you have failed and still love you (parents, close friends etc) but mostly you experience that unconditional love from God. No matter what you do, or how bad you mess you, his love never fails. He's always willing to take you back. If you understand his love, then you can learn to love properly. 1John4:19 We love because he first loved us.


True love is unconditional. If you love a person based on conditions, I'm sorry but that's not real love. If you "love" them because they are really attractive, what will happen if they get into a car-accident and their face is burnt up and you can barely recognize them? Will you love them still? How about if he can't provide for your family's needs, he's trying but still can't hang onto a job? Will you still love him then? Let's say he/she cheats on you and tries to come back to you because they realized they made a huge mistake? Will you still take them back and say you love them? If not it isn't love.

I think our society really dumbs down what love really is because they made up their own definition and guidelines. It’s a marketing tool they use. They promote superficial love. They show men and women in desperate need of attention. They promote a standard of beauty that everyone should conform to in order to find love. That somehow if you’re single there’s something wrong with you. They show the most attractive people pairing up and hooking up. They emphasize that if you’re single it's probably because no one wants you. They show that story book ending in all the movies and all shows. They show people “falling in love” and hooking up to commemorate that new relationship.  People see it so much that people think that’s the norm. That it’s okay to sleep with someone just as long as you’re in a committed relationship. I don’t care how long people have been together, the only time you are committed is when you’re married. No matter how long you’ve been together there will always the possibility of a change of heart, because people always change. The person that you’re with now could possibly be pretty different in the future and not in a positive way if he's not rooted in Christ.

Sex

I'm going to be honest and maybe this is too much info but I'm not a virgin. As a teenager and even younger, I was like any other guy, curious with sex on my mind. I was having these feelings and was a victim of our sexually based society. I knew via my faith and parents that sex was only to take place within a marriage. But the world gets to you right? You end up getting into relationships, and everything feels right and you feel that since it's a "common practice" (you see it on T.V., movies,  music, everyone talks about it etc.) and you feel that having sex is okay. So you do it, ignoring you're morals and just submitting into what your flesh wants to do. Being self-seeking (another word for being selfish). When you were having premarital sex did you ever think you were being selfish? Did you ever think that you were disrespecting the individual involved? Think about it.

No matter what society/media, your friends, or the other person involved says, whether it's visible (a child, an STD etc.) or not visible (emotional scars), sex leaves a mark. Even if it was consensual, friends with benefits etc. 

Let me ask you this:
Do you respect her (her body and emotions)?
Do you respect her future meaning...
Let's say you don't end up with her, do you respect her future husband?
Do you respect the future kids she may have?
Do you respect her enough to respect the wishes of the people who loved her the most in this world (parents) to not have sex before marriage? 
Do respect her God? 1Thessalonians 4:3 For this is the will of God, your sanctification; that is, that you abstain from sexual immortality. 
Do you want to be responsible for her not getting into heaven?

Probably not, right? She's someone's little girl, she's someone's older/younger sister, she's someone's future wife, someone's future mother but presently she's just a girl who you stick it to right? And later tell all your friends if she was good or not right? She's just your little booty call when your in the area or need some physical attention. Why don't you hold off with that experience until you fully know that you're going to be in her life forever?

They'll come a time when you'll want to settle down...
And if you're an honest person you're going to have to eventually tell her your sexual history. I don't know about you but I don't want to give her a laundry list of names or lie about it to her. 
A real man owns up no matter what the consequences are. If you're ducking or lying your a coward because you're afraid. And most likely knowing that you slept around is going to give rise to her being insecure about you and herself. She's probably going to question your intentions. But if you changed your life around and she sees that you've changed, I'm sure she would be more accepting.


Why I'm choosing to abstain? 
1. God intended sex for marriage. 1Corinthians7:2 But because of cases of immorality every man should have his own wife, and every woman her own husband.
2. I don't want to be responsible, if the relationship does fail, for her not trusting men anymore. I've done enough damage. I don't want to hinder her future relationships.
3. I don't want to be apart of that list of guys she's been with and has to later tell her future husband 
4. Sex complicates true emotions. It sometimes becomes the only thing that hold relationships together (superficially) 
5. I want to show my future wife some respect. Let her know that I waited for her. 
6. I want her parents to know that my intentions are genuine
7. I want to be a man of virtue
8. I want to be a father one day who practices what he preaches. I hope to lead by example 
9. Unplanned pregnancy, STDs etc.
10. I want to avoid all questions of insecurities (you know I'm not cheating on you because I don't do that). By excluding sex you can avoid a whole lot of drama. 

Advice:
-I know right off the bat you're going to be attracted to someone who you are physically/sexually attracted to. That's cool but don't be too impressed. Wait to see how they really are. Don't do anything super physical with them. It's going to complicate things. 
-Know your worth
-It's okay to say no. A person that wants to learn how to love you properly will wait. 
-Date knowing you could possibly marry this person 
-Follow your instincts. (Red Flags) 
-Love yourself first and be confident of who you are. 
-Raise your standards. (actually make a list: nothing superficial like eye color, height etc.)
-Be skeptical (Why is this person acting really nice to me?)
-If you want to see if a person's intentions are there, tell them, "No sex until we get married" and see what happens. If they stick around great, if not you've just dodged a bullet. 
-Abstain. Don't start building up a reputation and emotionally killing yourself or others 
-Be the person you want to meet
-Be patient, trust God, he knows what he's doing. 
-Educate yourselves. Below are a couple videos :) WATCH THEM!!! They are way better at explaining! 

                                          "The Best Place To Have Sex"


                                                         "Pure Life"


                                                "Finding Your Soul Mate"

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

For the Ladies: Self Worth, Insecurities & Body Image

Bottom line is everyone has issues about how they physically look. If you're too tall you want to be "average" height. If you're short, you want to be tall, but not too tall. If you're heavy set you want to be skinnier. If you think you're not "attractive" you want to look more "attractive." If you're too pale you want to be more tan etc. You don't like your body shape, you don't like the placement of your eyes, the shape of your eyebrows, the length and shape of your nose, the lack of fullness of your lips, hair line, ears, toes etc. When does the complaining end? When will you ever be satisfied? Where are these insecurities coming from? I'm blaming it on the devil, demons who influence the media, society and you. You! What do I mean by that? 

You try and fit yourself into their standard of beauty which is unrealistic (Photoshop). Everyone knows what it is or has a basic idea. If not turn on the TV and watch commercials directed toward the aesthetics of a woman, or look at the ads on your browser etc. The further away from it you are the more you want to conform to that image. And some of you become all depressed, hate on yourself or other girls that are more within society's standard of beauty (leading to disorders). I have three sisters, a mom and grandmother who constantly remind me of your struggle especially early in the mornings. 
-you gotta color the hair
-curl or flatten the hair
-Shave or add fake hair
-do the foundation
-make sure your nails are done 
-curl them eyelashes or add some on 
-put on mascara, blush, lipstick, lip gloss, eye shadow, eye liner. 
-detail with tweezers 
-hit the body spray, perfume etc.
aside from brushing your teeth, cleaning your ears, washing your face, checking if there's bats in the cave.
And then you have this whole dilemma what outfit to wear. Did I already point out that I have 3 sisters? lol 

Don't get me wrong hygiene is always a plus! There's nothing wrong with looking presentable. I know you ladies have jobs and need to dress the part. But I mean on the daily, all that other stuff, maybe you ladies are going too far and doing too much. If you think about it the girls that doll up the most, they are the most insecure of how they really look underneath. They're not proud of who they are without the make up, so they cover it up. They depend on it because they want approval of people (strangers mostly). I remember one video this guy was saying that "You're lying with your face." Which is true sometimes. Your lying about your complexion, lip color, your height (heels) etc. And then you have the girls that try and show off their bodies. It's cool to like how God made you but are you showing it for the right reasons? Are you showing how fit you are to inspire others to live a healthy lifestyle knowing that you are a temple of God or are you trying to lustfully attract men? Why do you put yourself through all of that? Where is your self-worth? Where is your confidence? What kind of attention are you trying to attain? Who are you dressing up for? Is he even worth all that time you spent on yourself? You know physical "beauty" fades right? How long can you keep that charade going? Do you hold people's opinion above God's?  

Love the World? 
Galatians1:10 Am I now currying favor with human beings or God? Or am I seeking to please people? If I were still trying to please people I would not be a slave of Christ 
Colossians2:8 See to it that no one captivate you with an empty, seductive philosophy according to human tradition, according to the elemental powers of the world and not accord to Christ.
1John2:15 Do not love the world of or the things of this world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the father is not in him

I think all those insecurities arise because you don't truly believe in God. You place to much faith in people, society and their ideas. People are fallible. God made you exactly how you are and is pleased with what he created. You have to know that. YOU ARE ENOUGH. You were WORTH DYING FOR. Once you know that the world's standard's don't matter, you should walk with confidence knowing that there was no mistake made when he created you. He specifically designed you for a specific purpose and for a specific someone in some cases. Be patient. Let him use you. 
 
Don't try and please these guys who look you up and down like that. I know the attention might give you some sort of pleasure but have some respect for yourself. Set an example. Be skeptical of guys who are attracted to you. Don't give it up so easily and rush into something physical. I used to be attracted to pretty girls that wore revealing dresses and were dolled up to a certain extent. But now to be honest I kind of feel sorry for those types of girls. You're someone's daughter, sister, niece, future mother, future wife, role model. Check yourself. Would God even recognize you?

 

Jason Evert - Why Modesty?

Jason Evert - All Guys are Jerks!
Jason Evert - Dressing for Love 

Pretty Girls that are not rooted in Christ are over-rated

Be a woman of Proverbs31! Let us be attracted via your virtues


Proverbs 31:30 Charm is deceptive and beauty fleeting; the woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. 


Wait for this type of dude :)

Crucifixion Type Love-Brent Rice 


Cross/Rosary wearing trend SMH


I typed this up and posted it on my Instagram a couple days ago hoping people would see it and realize that the Cross is not an accessory. I admit I wore the cross, scapular and bracelets and was wearing them while doing some shameful stuff, consciously embracing sinful acts. And that's why I'm letting you guys know because I'm embarrassed but I've changed and so can you.  I'm starting to understand the responsibility of letting people know that you believe in Christ. It's a serious matter. It should actually make you think and want to change when you see it. People all over the world have been put to death and martyred for worshiping that cross. And here you come along (my former self included) wearing it because celebrities are wearing it, because you think it looks cute with your outfit, because you want to represent that you're a Christian/Catholic and therefore a good person. I know it's a sin to get angry and pissed off but I'm working on it. Now that I've realized the truth I get so frustrated. My little sister can vouch for me. Being born and raised a Catholic Filipino means that I was born into a lot of faith influenced traditions. One tradition involves a statues of the Virgin Mary and Santo Nino (Baby Jesus) coming to our house and placed on a makeshift alter. During the evening we stop whatever we are doing and come and pray the rosary as well as other prayers. When I was younger I used to kick and scream to not do it, but as I got older I started to appreciate the prayers and what those actions represent as a whole. You're taking time out of your "busy life" and from the things you'd rather be doing to thank God for blessing you've received. You also pray to get through your daily hardships and for the people you've lost. I strongly doubt that those kids and adults who wear those rosaries nowadays around their necks like necklaces, actually use them for what they were intended for. You're not even supposed to be wearing them around your neck. It's disrespectful and that's what I've always been taught. I'm sure that there are some that do have the right intentions, but if your not one of them stop and educate yourself.

The reason I wear a cross is to remind myself that when I'm in public, I need to represent accordingly. I take on that responsibility that with every action that someones sees me doing, should be Christ-like. If I'm doing something not Christ-like I hope someone would catch and check me on it. I'm doing this so you won't feel embarrassed if someone does check you. The rosary is a beautiful prayer and you should learn how to do it. And go ahead and wear the cross, but just be conscious of what you represent.

How to pray the Rosary-

History about the Rosary-

Hypochristian- Karness (P4CM) <-------REALLY REALLY GOOD!!!!


Your lifestyle has got to match what you want to represent. These artists rep Jesus but do their lifestyles reflect his message and what was beaten and killed for? Look at their lyrics, look at their behavior. Don't idolize or support people with a clear Identity Crisis.

The whole you shouldn't judge others explained. 


This video is pretty intense. Viewer discretion is advised!!!!!! To be honest I was almost in tears after I watched this. I put it on here because it's the truth. It's what actually happened to those who believed in Jesus. All you guys who rep your faith with tattoos and jewelry, think about what the early Christians had to go through when they claimed to be a Christian.




Genesis? Story or Real Events


The more and more I got into researching my faith there were always questions that was never answered for me and were the main reasons why I didn't wholeheartedly trust the bible. 

Skeptics would say (back then myself included): 
-The bible is really old and has been translated several times, how do you know the people that wrote it didn't change it up a bit?
-Where do dinosaurs come into play? Before or after Adam and Eve?
-What about cave-men?
-What about evolution?
-It says Adam lived to be 930 years old in the book of Genesis? Is that possible?
-Why does God seem different from the old and new testament? 

I stumbled on this video of this Southern Baptist Creationist that explains it all. To me what he has to say makes sense. If you look up Dr. Kent Hovind you can see his many debates with atheists and evolutionists. It's pretty entertaining. He's a pretty funny guy lol




What it comes down to is the question of how did we all get here? Do you think we've been evolving for millions of year from a spec of matter combined gases with some energy etc? Where did the matter, gases and energy particles originate? How does non-living material transform into living material? It's never been done in a lab. Do you really believe that you evolved from some monkey? Since there is creation, there must be a creator right? And since there is a creator shouldn't you try and find out what he wants of you if he's the one who created you?